Saturday, March 27, 2010
Just went home from lot one, what a idiot I am, thought that library open at ten, anyway, start to prepare my O level
le, this year prove everything I had learn for the past 3 year. Wow, time pass really fast. It seems like yesterday, I just got to
dunearn sec. right now, I am about to face a challenge, to determine my academic standard. I really hope is not too late to bunk up my weak subject like English. But I just dunno how to do it. Anyway, just went to watch how to train your dragon in 3D. I really like the show, I really love that dragon called toothless, and it’s really adorable. How I wish to keep it as a pet.
Hahas, such a wild dream I had. Anyway, upset thing happen recently. So here is what I really feel.
Having mum at home maybe a good thing, but sometime it really annoying.
See, I’m 17 year old, can’t I choose what clothes I want to wear and not what she want? I’m a human not a Barbie girl, I dun get it. I
noe the weather maybe freaking bad, you dun have much choice but for me to wear certain clothes, I’m fine with it. But, why my sis get a chance to wear what she want, choose clothes by her and I have to struck with what clothes you want me to wear? For once, can I choose and pick my own clothes? Maybe some people envy that having mum at home is good, I just a brat that doesn't treasure what I have, but all I want is choosing my own clothes, all I want is fair, can she stop being so bias? She always said that she is not a bias mum, but action speak louder than word, the way she treat my sis and the way she treat me is different, same goes to my dad, sometimes seriously I wonder, do they love me, if they really
distasted me so much, why have me in the first place, no matter how hard I try, work hard in my academic, I can’t see the care I want. All they do is scold for my mistakes but not praise me. Can they give me some encouragement the show that they care for me? Why when they fought with my sis, they treat me so good but why they start to be good to my sis, I like a nuisance kid to them? I like the displacement of my sis, I’m like a shadow of my sis, and can’t they see the different? I really hate this feeling, is like I lost in a world that I couldn't fight to survive. Nobody can save me, I really hate it, and can they show me care? For once, can I speak what I feel? Every time I said what I feel, she will get angry and think I show no respect to adult, for once, can she listen, can they listen? You want to understand you, but dun want to understand me. I like a bird struck in a cage, but does she know I’m like a wind, a bird? I wan a freedom? I don’t mind coming home at certain time but I just want to choose my own clothes, I’m already 17, no longer a kiddo, can she just let me choose?
